jus got home after seeing the doctor...so sian...took my med le...doctor says i'm stressed up and got bi dou yan...tats why i alwasy hav headache esp when it comes to serious stuff like studying and blah blah blah....he ask mi to relax and take things easy before i really breakdown...but how to...i've got less den 70 days to my o'level....how to relax...if i fail my Os...i'm gonna regret all my life...not jus becos i can't get a good job in the future or wad.... but i promise someone so dearly to mi tat i wil work hard and make sure my family got a good life ....i made this promise during his funeral...and i dun wan ppl to think tat i dun do well in my studies bcos i'm in a relationship..
and of cos wads going on in my head is not jus study study study...there are alot of other problems as well...
Be with mi...
8:43 PM
think through alot of things during the mock exam jus now...as i walk back home and when i went down for my 3 rounds...
when i finished my 3 rounds...i came home...the tv was switched on and somethings caught my attention...in the show...the guy was saying to the gal...when someone brings u joy...he or she can bring u the same amount of pain...den the gal agreed and reply...becos the deeper u love...the more u hate...so...darling really care and loved mi....but hours ago...i walk off and told him tat i walk off bcos i feel like he hated mi...i'm sorry dar...
he was upset bcos lepoard can't change his spots...i promised him...but i broke the promise agn and agn...like wad i said b4...i was a gal who used to joke arnd wif gals...guys...whoever...but i noe i shouldn't now cause i'm attach...somehow subconsiously i went back to who i use to be...i hurt him...and yet i said he hated me...
whatever it is...its my fault...i disappointed him and broke his heart...i told him...til the dae i chgn...he can choose not to see mi...he told mi tat he didn't wan to see mi bcos he didn't wan to end up quarreling and scolding mi...so i hope tat the dae of [happily ever after] wil come soon...some ppl may ask...wads the point of being together when we quarrel agn and agn n agn... my answer is tat...the quarrel starts not bcos u wan to hurt tat person or u hate him/her...is bcos u care and u love...like wad the show said agn...for even if the joy is much much lesser den the pain...if u really love him/her...the joy wil wash away everything...
though we quarrel so much...i didn't regret o1 jan 2007...07.11am...i love u forever and ever and ever....never ending forever...zhut!!!...
Be with mi...
3:42 AM
The Keys to Your Heart 
You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.
In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved.
You'd like to your lover to think you are optimistic and happy.
You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.
Your ideal relationship is comforting. You crave a relationship where you always feel warmth and love.
Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.
You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.
In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.
Be with mi...
4:02 AM
its our anniversary todae...we met up...i gave him the present and of cos received mine too...den he went off...i seriously miss him...yst...i was in my room the whole damn dae...and todae...after sch...rush hm...went downstair to pass him the present at 4.30pm...den i didn't go hm...i open up the present in puggol cc...all alone...i was so touched when i see the present...really veri sweet of him...he is a nice guy...but i'm not a nice girlfren...i didn't noe how to love him...
den after an hour...i went back home...change to my track shoe and went down again...i ran 3 rounds...came home..bath...now blogging and going into my room later....
darling...happy anniversary...hope u like the present...thanks for ur present...it really touched my heart...i love u and onli u...forever and ever and ever...missing u like crazy now....zhut!...take care...
Be with mi...
3:33 AM
LOving yOu
-`say yOu love mi