not in good mood these days...olso dunno why...sian sian de...i fa pi qi at darling todae...sorry darling...our relationship is always going up n down...no matter it is ur fault or mine...i really do love u...u promised mi to go school regulary...but these few weeks...dunno is u too tired or wad...u didn't do it...u put a tattoo on ur leg...i was upset abt it....but suan le...put le jiu put le ba....lately...all ur goodnite sms look rather alike for everydae...it make mi feel uneasy...u knew i didn't like a tattoo but u put it anyway...it make mi feel uneasy... when we quarrel...i ask if u stil love mi...u said u dunno...i feel worst...til lately...u told mi...yes..u stil love mi...wo an xin le...
todae shawn look moody...and he went down to the court all alone...no one was at home except mi, him, maid n grandma...grandma sae she thinks tat shawn weird weird de...so i followed down to see if he is alright...i called u to tel u...but...u got angry...i dunno wad is wrong for mi to do tat...i'm having headache todae...plus i xing qing bu hao...so i called u back n spoke in a rude tone...i'm sorry...i hope u understand...alot of things is not going the rite way for mi...i've got no mood to joke...no mood to play...sorry lao gong...hope u understand...
the rest of things tat is not going on in my life...my so called fren....my work...my family...i really dunno wad i do wrong.....haiz.....
xing qing hen bu hao arrrhhhhh!!!!!!!
Be with mi...
4:30 AM
today is my birthdae...its not happy birthdae...some unhappy things happen...so sad...seventeen le stil like tat...haiz...
i guess u forgot totally abt my birthdae...mayb u got ur own things to do...i dUn blame u...
thanks...to all who remember my birthdae...
seventeen le...grow up le...but my height...suan le ba...ha ha..anyway....tats me... ha ha...
was being called small mushroom/small mario todae...kim is the big one... ha ha...cos...we got the same hairstyle...lol....kim and qianting sang happy birthdae for mi...so touched...ha ha...ate kim gary olso...nice...the bake rice is nice...ha ha
oya...came home today...my kor kor bought mi a piglet keychain...so nice of him rite...h aha...thanks...
tats my birthdae...
muacks!!!
Be with mi...
7:37 AM
forget it...nthing pay off...u are stil like tat....i gave up totally now...
i hav to work on new yr...wad can i do...i'm not the boss...who dUn wish to off on new yr n rest...
forget it...u are stil like tat...wouldn't put urself in my shoe de...i'm rite...u wouldn't change...
my aunt bring mi go facial todae...first tym i do facial...so pain la...til now stil a bit swollen...actually cannot even go out de...firstly i nid to wait for my face to heal...secondly its ugly...end up...i stil choose to go find u all...den u like tat....suan le la...i stay at hm btr....
Be with mi...
5:37 AM
ya...i know i promise u alot of things but i broke my promise in the end...
ya...i said i wan to be wif u every moment...
but have u ever tot tis is not possible...
i didn't sae u can't go find ur frens...but who...i dun wan to see u get into trouble or get hurt..
i nid to go nian jing...its my responsibility...if i come out...the whole team wil be down bcos of mi...
wad can i do???...
u sae i onli listen to my mum but not u...
yes..i love u ...but she is my mum...without her... wil u hav mi?...
i feel tat u hav changed a lot...ya..i changed too...
if u stil think tat everything is my fault den i olso can't do anything...
if u wanna hate mi forever...i olso can't do anything...
Be with mi...
7:08 AM
todae is a bad bad dae...although my two hamster got their new house...
i upset my darling...again...
everytym we quarrel i wil be the one shouting and blah blah blah...but everytime after i cool down...i realise...tats my darling...i didn't give him face at all by shouting at him and blah blah blah...i'm sorry dar...so i wil keep quiet as much as possible...but sometym i stil...
now i'll jus keep quiet and hope tat he wil forgive mi or at least dun be angry anymore....
dar...i love u forever and ever and ever...hope we wil become hamster the next life ...and we wil stay in tat little house of ours...jus u and mi...together forever...
Be with mi...
6:22 AM
nothing to do...darling went to look for his brother...so i blog lo....
we have been quarelling for the past few days....now ok le......maybe we are wad ppl call huan xi yuan jia ba...wadever it is...i'm glad tat we are stil together...and as sweet as it use to be...i love u darling......i onli love Neo Jie Pin...my one and onli...love ya forever and ever and ever...everlasting love...Zhut!
Be with mi...
6:06 AM
jus got home after seeing the doctor...so sian...took my med le...doctor says i'm stressed up and got bi dou yan...tats why i alwasy hav headache esp when it comes to serious stuff like studying and blah blah blah....he ask mi to relax and take things easy before i really breakdown...but how to...i've got less den 70 days to my o'level....how to relax...if i fail my Os...i'm gonna regret all my life...not jus becos i can't get a good job in the future or wad.... but i promise someone so dearly to mi tat i wil work hard and make sure my family got a good life ....i made this promise during his funeral...and i dun wan ppl to think tat i dun do well in my studies bcos i'm in a relationship..
and of cos wads going on in my head is not jus study study study...there are alot of other problems as well...
Be with mi...
8:43 PM
LOving yOu
-`say yOu love mi